I'm trying hard not to be down this evening. Some pretty crappy stuff is going on at work, and I'm not really sure if this is the job God wants me in anymore. My stress levels are up really high, I'm having anxiety attacks, and I'm taking out my frustration on my husband. The bad situations at work are affecting my home life, and its not something I'm willing to sacrifice, even for Starbucks.
And then there's my lack of patience. Its so strong, I fight with it every day. That pull in my heart, and I have to keep reminding myself that now is not the time. And no matter how bad I want it, I can't make it the perfect time. So I keep waiting; crying out for time to go by faster, for my heart to be ok with this process. I just feel... hopeless. Like I'm not getting anywhere. I don't know... I'm going to go shower and take my supportive, loving husband to dinner. Thanks for my sad, confusing rants. I know this one was a little vague, I'm just not ready to talk about everything yet-even on here.
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