Well, I was cleaning out the hall closet downstairs (which we very rarely use) and came across a box that I didn't even know was in there. I don't think I'd even touched it since we moved into this house, a year and a half ago. Sitting amidst random papers and articles were pictures of me and Glenn. This of course, sent me down memory lane. And in the middle of that little "travel" I searched for him on facebook. I know, call me dorky if you'd like. I guess I should pause here and say that I in no way have feelings for him any more, and was not looking for a way to "get in touch". Curiousity got the best of me, I suppose. But its nothing more than that.
Anyway... in looking on his facebook and at his pictures I was overwhelmed with a distinct feeling. I am so incredibly blessed to have God in control of my life. I of course didn't know any of this at the time I was with Glenn, but now I see just how wrong we were for each other. God sent me Matthew for a distinct reason. I am so blessed to have such an upstanding, trustworthy man by my side. He has always loved and supported me, and encouraged me in the right directions. He holds my head up, wipes my tears, and walks down the same path with me. He's an excellent father, and an amazing husband. I would be incomplete without him, however cliche that may sound. Its the truth. He's my better half, he's the piece I was missing. He makes me whole.
And I am so incredibly happy to be his wife, and a mother of his beautiful girl. I'm glad he's enlisted, and that we're in South Dakota. As much as I hate this state, I know we've been placed here for a good reason. I am blessed. So incredibly blessed. It overwhelms me. I cannot help but to think "what if". What if God hadn't removed Glenn from my life? What if instead of clinging to God, I had abandoned him? Where would I be? I shutter at the thought of being anywhere but here.
Well, now that my mini rant is over... Sorry that was long. I just had to get off my chest how thankful I am that Christ saves me. Not just from my sin, but from myself, from my mistakes, and from my selfishness.
I totally had the same thing happen to me not very long ago with pictures of Stephen. I fb'd him to see where he was in life...married and such now..and ended up taking a trip down memory lane of the good and absolutely horrible times we had together and became incredibly thankful God saved me from that relationship and brought me Joshua. Don't tell him I called him Joshua. :) Isn't God amazing?
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