Keeping the Faith

I want to hold on 'cause I'm afraid
And I didn't ask for it to be this way
Somehow I found myself caught in the grey
Reaching out for fear, running out of faith

You know what I don't
So help me to let go
You're in control
So help me to let go
I want to let go

I want to let go of what I can't change
'Cause I can't wrap my mind around Your ways
I've got more questions than I have answers these days
Please don't let my suffering go to waste

These are the moments its hard to believe
So please help me, please help me
These are the moments of surrendering
So please help me, please help me
-Matt Hammitt (Let Go)

My good good friend Mandy sent me this song today. It struck a cord. I'm holding on to all this chaos, all my pain, all my stress. And as much as I try to bottle it up, to "let it go" I'm never really surrendering to God. It doesn't do any good if I'm not letting Him take control.

I feel a fool. Here I am, running around with my head cut off, wondering where the heck God is. And He's been standing there the whole time, begging me to let Him take the load.

So I guess this is me, kneeling at the cross, laying at His feet, surrendering. He can every thing. Every piece of my heart, every thing that I have clenched in my fists, every worry, every pain... I realize that I can't control this. I cannot control this. But God can. He already is. I just need to take a deep breath and trust him. Step up to my faith and really believe that He will right this.

Heaven broke into this moment, it's too wonderful to speak
You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me
So let me recklessly love you, even if I bleed
You're worth all of me, you're worth all of me