Am I Defending Myself, Really?

I hope that people understand by reading this blog that we are consulting God with every decision we're faced with. We've prayed a lot about every detail of this move. From Matthew's job, to our home, to where we're supposed to be. We pray about the ability to pack and stay organized, that it would be an easy transition for Jasmine and Abby. We pray about all of it. Daily.

We feel led to Junction. We looked other places for months. We checked out Cheyenne, which was originally where we wanted to be. We looked all over Colorado and Utah. But God keeps calling us back to Junction.

Does it look like we're taking the easy route by moving back home? Probably. But we're not doing it because its easier. In a lot of ways its going to be more difficult! But we want what is best for our family, including our daughter. We want her around her extended family. We want Abigail to have a personal relationship with her grandparents and her aunts and uncles... even her cousins.

And I do miss home. So does Matthew. Its hard being so young with a toddler and newly married and doing all this on our own. Its a struggle every day. Yes, sometimes I do need help. Does that make me a bad mother?

We know what we're doing. We know that the decisions we make are not easy, or something to be made in a hasty manner, or simply off of our feelings. We ruled out Grand Junction for a very long time because I knew that's where my heart was. I didn't want my feelings to get involved and mess everything up.

All I can say is what I know. God is calling us home. He isn't calling us to Cheyenne or Denver or Salt Lake or even Texas! And I don't know why, but I know it is His will. I know that above all God knows more than we do, and He sees the bigger picture.