Another week has gone by, this one uneventful. I'm an emotional wreck; I'm so tired of crying over stupid things and throwing temper-tantrums. I have a whole list of emotions running through me, and they all mix together and make me confused and emotional. I want to stop the world for a minute and just breathe. I want to stop being pregnant just long enough to catch my breath and recover before moving forward. Unfortunately, this isn't something I get a break from. I'm reminded constantly that I am pregnant: and its both a blessing and a curse. There's a lot that I can't do; both at home and at work. At first it was nice to have a "break" and not be expected to do everything, but now its just frustrating. I want to be back to my normal self; with hot foods and caffeine and the occasional Mike's. The funny thing is, even after the pregnancy, most of the stuff I miss I won't be able to have or do. This is an unexpected life change, and I'm not sure I was prepared for it.

God is constantly reminding me that He has not given me something I can't handle, and that with the three of us together (Matthew, God, and I) we can get through this and make it out on top. My biggest concern is the baby, I want it to be happy and healthy and to grow up in a strong, Christian household. I'm scared of a lot of things right now, and raising a child is definitely near the top of that list. I've never done it before, I have virtually no experience in some of these areas, and it stresses me out. Today I'm giving it back to God (AGAIN), and letting Him take care of not only the child, but the future, and our new family.