Once again there isn't a whole lot to blog about... I pretty much am just taking one day at a time now. The only pants I can wear are my two maternity pairs that I bought on clearance, sweatpants, and a pair of jeans my sister outgrew in high school. Awesome. My shirts are all too short now and don't cover my bump, and have I mentioned I've been dreaming about having a baby every night for the past week? Mostly I dream about bringing the baby home, and for some strange reason its always a girl.
That is, until one of Matthew's friends brought up the whole "are you sure you're not having twins" question again. My doctor said when I brought it up last time that its just because my frame is so small, the baby has no where else to go but out. And while I understand that logic completely, I still can't help but be worried about it. What if we ARE having twins? We'd have to buy another crib, two high chairs, two swings... TWO of everything. Now I know that having a baby is already SO pricey, but having to buy double is just making me sick. The ultrasound is scheduled for May 11, and I guess we'll find out then just how many there are in there.
Matthew DID say that if we're having twins we can find out what the sexes are. I guess that's a little exciting... And honestly, having twins would be such a blessing. With two children we can move into the nicer housing (with a front porch and a back yard twice the size of what we have now). Not that that's the only reason I'd want two kids! I've seen how great twins can be, and also how hard it can be at times. I know I'm blessed to have two families now that would drop everything to rush up here if I really needed them to, as well as a husband that will help me out in every way possible. He's already been so great, picking up what I drop on the floor and helping me take off my shoes. Yeah, I know, I'm already that big. He grabs my hand to steady me if I start to loose my balance doing something, and he's constantly hovering to make sure I'm eating and drinking and staying away from that list of foods that I'm not allowed to have.
Which by the way, I will be SO excited when I can eat sushi again. Man, do I miss the sushi! I'm still not really having any cravings either, although I have to get a slushi every time we walk through Target.
The nursery is pretty much half done, as soon as the rest of the furniture is bought and placed in there just the way I like it, I can rest easy. Well, probably not easy, but easier at least. Some days I can stand my living room and picture a napping baby in a little yellow swing by the window, or a kid playing with cheerios in a high chair while I cook dinner. Those thoughts are what keep me brave, keep me from freaking out at the thought of getting up every two hours in the middle of the night for feedings, and being uneasy for the first few months that the baby will get SIDS. I'm already fearful and just as much a worrier as my mother was. :/ Great.
No, I'm putting it in the hands of God daily. Praying for a healthy, strong baby with a great attitude, and for an easy transition into parenthood for both myself and Matthew. That's what really keeps me strong. Ok, so I rambled a bit, and I'm going to go start lunch for my husband. :) Have a great week you guys.
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